Been having a few really rough days thinking of Iris, Ursa and experiencing a strong sense of loss. My therapy exists in many forms... one of those is visiting the 'puppy garden' out back where all my children eventually go to rest.It seems every year we have to deal with another health issue or start the process of comfort (for both human and animal) as another old friend starts on their path out of this life.
It never gets any easier...
As I brought out another batch of stones to the garden today to continue covering up Iris' grave I had to stop and back track to find Ajax who, once again, got himself lost in the ground cover. He was probably waiting for me to pick him up... an easy enough thing to do if I can only find him!
As I headed back, Mercury and Chronos (the house huskies for the day) followed and helped beat the bushes for Ajax to find us. As I walked up to our little slough that still has not dried out I caught movement... a mating pair of ducks were quietly swimming in the moderately deep water so peaceful and so quiet that nether dog noticed them.
It was a complete surprise to me and a total joy to see them. I find when I get to my lowest points the 'spirit', whether it be Iris directly or some other being, always sends messages of love usually in the form of animals.
What a beautiful sign to see this mating pair of healthy beautiful ducks so at peace hiding away in their little world that exists so perfectly within our own.
This doesn't take away the pain of my loss but it certainly helps to know that someone is out there, thinking of me and showing that I am not alone.
Grief is something we all have to experience and feel but the sense of aloneness should never be acknowledged. We are never alone, ever... and even though we have a hard time seeing those who have gone before us I assure you, they are there... right next to us, in spirit helping, holding and offering up the signs of their love if only we are open enough to see them...
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