Sharing a Moment...

Its the Buffalo Brothers turn in today and I decided to have Chronos in as well. As usual they all crowded around the kitchen while I helped James fix dinner. Every night the kitchen seems to grow smaller and smaller.

James had some soft music on tonight, really mellow stuff so while waiting for my water to boil I couldnt resist laying down beside Thani on the kitchen floor. He didnt object one bit, the two of us laid there listening to music and the quiet of the house.

The feeling of dogs all around was so comforting, Spock over by the freezer with Juno at his side (as shes done since she was a pup), Boreas at my feet, Ajax finding a soft place my one of the babies and Chronos relaxing by the water bowl.

As I get older Im reminded of a childhood moment spend with my sister and father during one of our visitations with him on the weekend. We were all sitting together in one place, my sister sitting on one side, myself on the other, my father inbetween us... all of us cuddled together...

In my mind it is a brief memory but a strong one... I remember looking up at my father and asking him what was wrong, why were his eyes suddenly tearing up... "Oh, its nothing," he would say, "just my eyes watering." I didnt think much of it as our daily routine carried us all somewhere else...

... but as I grow older and raise these kids of my own, I cant help but feel completely in my fathers shoes. Thani picked his head up and looked at me tonight as if asking what's wrong... my silent reply, "Be still, its nothing at all..." He laid back down again, his head resting on my arm. Deep down I knew those deep hearted feelings were within that moment, that still portion of time that I wished would never end...

It not the mushing I crave above all things, its not harnessing up dogs and driving them down the trail... that is a distant second to what is really important to me. Its the dogs I crave. Letting them live their lives as they see fit and for me to be a front row patron to their daily lives.

When I bury my face in their fur, breathe their scent... there is nothing like it in the world... it is there that I am most at peace...