Rental is Finished!!

Its official, the work on our rental house is complete with only a few pictures left to take tonight when we do the final walk through with the realtor. It should be on the market in a few days.

Selling this piece of property will mean so much to us and open new doors to land in Talkeetna and creating our own private haven for dogs and people.

I hadn't realized how much of my mind was taken up by working over there, James too... we've both been consumed with details so much that we started loosing touch of what we want our lives to be.

Until last night I hadn't realized how far away I had become, from life, from the dogs, from myself... ever since Ursa died, then Iris, then their mother Aquila (each only a year apart), I have been pulling back from life so hard that its nearly taken me away from the core of who I really am. Ive consumed myself with work and maintained my mind in a perpetual state of busy-ness that blocked out most of the feelings of my soul.

A few nights ago I had an intense dream about Ursa, far too personal to share here, that rocked me down to my very foundation. It is said that a true healing cannot come until you hit rock bottom, that dream was mine...

So last night I rediscovered a part of the dog yard that has been there for so long just waiting for me to find it, our hidden sanctuary.

When I was younger I used to sit at the base of old growth trees and let them 'talk' to me while I absorbed their calm energy and wisdom. I still miss those care free days but it appears they are coming round again.

There are four older spruce trees, their tops I can see from my office window, and their base just wide enough for a wonderful back rest. The ground is dry there, shaded and calm. I will be focusing many nights with the dogs and trees all around me as I get back to that place I have lost, reconnecting my soul in preparation for the road ahead.

There is much still to do but instead of pushing so hard forward I wish now approach my life with grace, patience and understanding. I desire to be a human-being and not just a human-doing...