Question on my mind this morning... how can the loss of one dog feel like millions?Everyone in the yard is having a hard time generating a communal howl. Ive heard of this happening before in other yards with the loss of other matriarchs but never experienced it myself. This morning they seemed to have done better but I still hear the over all confusion come through.
I'm still in shock, probably will be for some time...
And as the leaves fall from the trees and the weather cools my mind slips away to winter, to the ease there, to the peace of snow. Ive started cleaning the dog box and scheduling serious time for dog yard repairs and extra houses Ive wanted to build all summer. Work literally picked me up, swept me away and left me with confusion on where the days and months had gone.
I realized yesterday that I had neglected so much of what was 'me' in order to create and work for others that I became lost for a while. I don't regret the time spent, the lessons learned but seeing things from this end of the spectrum made me realize that certain work must be put on the forefront if its ever going to get done before he snow and cold make things difficult.
I'm not sure if the passing of Aquila has shifted my mind to this realization or if it was the drop in tourist traffic that mercifully slows things down for me and my business... in the end, does it matter where insight comes from? Probably not... living in the moment commands just that... this very moment and nothing more...
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